and so the spotlight is on me.
my mind is a jumble, as it has been in the last two months. a lot has happened, and a lot is still going on.
but i wanna start by talking about paradoxes. the days have flown by, day 40 today love. look how far we've gone! but when you chop it all up, the hours crawl. if only we could give the snail a slap in the bum to egg it on to move, i would have given it a bitchslap. or a whipsmack in the ass. *whapakk*
moving on. i am a complete individual by myself. yet, i am not. i am half of who i am. the other half is you. i need you, love. i am your independent dependent, if i may say so. immobilized. that's how i feel. this is an elected immobilization, mind you. i don't wanna start experiencing until i can experience it with you. i know i'm making sense. to you, at least.
day zero nears. and i can't wait. but wait! it means that by then we would already have done (or at least decided on) the rings and the tuxes and the colors and all of those stuff that make white-cake celebrations crazy and exciting at the same time. yet another paradox. geewhiz. just making up my mind on the palette scheme makes my head spin.
but not like the way you do after 10pm every night. teehee.
bet you didn't expect that, did you?
love, sometimes, i just wanna pick up where we left off. if we only could, probably we're still in kyusi right now, having coffee and getting ready for work. then we'd be saving transportation money, coz we're from (and going to) the same area. then we'd have lunch together. not in silence i hope. (remember that inasal lunch where we both said only ten words collectively in the entire duration of the meal? we're both idiots, i'm telling you.) then we'd work again (yeah right) and i'll be anxiously waiting for 5pm so i could objectively appreciate (asuuuus) you're physique from afar as you walk towards me along emerald. then you'd kiss me passionately amidst the throng of people on the street island and take my hand, and hail a cab home. and you know what's next after that. ah, memories... where was i again? oh right, picking up where we left off. yeah, i was saying, i'd like that, but then again not. you were the one who taught me to look forward. so i am now looking forward. and guess what i'm seeing? a guest list of 250 that needs to be filled! oh lookie, another paradox.
two more weeks love and i will be on day1 at work. now that i've gotten my foot in the door, just you wait till i hike up my skirt and inch my leg in. then they'd go madly for the door and open it wide just so i can come in. can't wait to start working. i can see ink scribbles along the dotted line of the noim already!
i hope you're as excited as i am. coz i'm almost peeing on my seat just thinking about walking to the airport gates (do i really have to be in a cream sweater?) and carrying a banner that says 'welcome home ziggy' (nick wants that name).
i'd better shush now. let me just adjust this monitor so i can go through it, and give you a hug through the screen. c'meer buboolove.... (now that would be scary.)
ok please turn off the spotlight now.
*exits stage right and begins life at 40*
love is what is left at the end of the day.
From: melbourne, victoria, Australia
About me: i'm a wanderlust and a warrior of life. i have hordes of nomads and soldiers waiting to wander this sometimes barren and sometimes lush landscape of my head. i send them forth. they are my words. my weapon of choice: purple prose
posted by lei at 6:14 AM
reading that felt like you splashed me with different colors. from emerald, to qc, to tomorrow to now.
as a song said: you taught me how tomorrow and today my life is different from the yesterday, coz it's you! lalalaaaa lalaaaaaaaaa good morning pretty. :)
it feels different today. last night i was thinking what to do after you slept. because i was used to writing you letters. guess i'd get back to the old poetry board.
i can't wait. so who else is in the entourage?
and bitch slap. and 10 pm. harrrrr!