t stuff that 'iloveyou' can't say
Thursday, February 15, 2007
59 changing the sound of the wind chimes
Maybe countdown is a wrong word for what this is all about. Because at the end of the day I feel that nothing has been discarded, left out or taken off of the list. In fact everything that happened since day 85 has become a part of what we are. It made bridges and steps binding us closer and making us to what we will be after this has reached day zero.

Though I would want to write a lighter letter, allow me to say something good that has weight too. Forgive me for the past few days for dropping us if not iron balls of heartaches, tiny splinters of impatience. Now I am compelled to bring in hopes in trailers.

Even though we had a very difficult time through this breaking? The molding it has done is life-making. I can’t imagine myself quitting a habit that has been a part of me for the last decade of my life. The waking up very early, the going home very early too. It’s so freaking healthy. Freaking healthy. This is really making me ready for something in the future. *hinthint*

And here’s to all the too much thought-tenderizing analysis-- I quit. You are right love. Maybe we delve too much on the emotions and on thoughts that electrically shock our arteries. If the last four weeks had a big impact with the best life changing mechanics into motion (yep…Einstein!), the remaining weeks shall have its share too. So cheers to the remaining days and to Him whose ways are higher than ours. Let us let it be.

 
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1 Comments:


  • At 9:15 AM, Blogger lei

    love...

    today i am feeling desperate. funny how one i feeling hopeful when the other is down.. and vice versa..

    just imagine if we're both feeling stuck in a rut. can't let that happen.

    thanks for pulling me up today.

    and thanks for the faith reminder.

    and it's lovely to know that you've finally quit. =)

    cheeers to the remaining smokefree days and to Him whose ways are higher than ours... :)

    i do not understand it completely.. but yeah, i leave it all to Him.