arguing is not merely an activity of the mind, it is physically strenuous as well. breathing becomes labored. your chest has tons of weight on it. muscles tense. you get so riled up, it feels as if you'd like to throw punches or just bolt and run. and i swear i could hear our hearts crunching.
i'm sorry it happened, what happened. i tried to stop it, with you blinking the red lights crazily. all i saw were red flags waving. so i charged. my emotions were too strong for me. when heat and cold interact, and with all the conditions favorable, it inevitably develops into a full-blown tornado, and destroys. months of brick-laying and careful planning implode into scraps of debris scraping and crashing everything in its whirlwind way. when you actually think about it, emotion is a force of nature.
so we're back to faith. the gun has gone off, but we're being sent to the starting point again. run with me, coach. train me over and over until i get it right. love is patient, ain't it? we will win this race. eventually, if not soon. it's our own track after all.
when we see ourselves in the same path again, direct me to this entry, sweetie. because it is here where i am declaring this:
i will always have faith in you. and i will leave it all behind. cebu, the entry, the journal, the letters. henceforth, i will detach the shadow of the past so it won't tag along with my gown's train as i walk towards you.
i know what i know. you've never failed to show me, not a single day since we've been together. and i believe you.
and on making up, love. just like the drapes, all we need is a sliver of light to remind ourselves not to embrace the darkness. slide them open, and let the sunshine in.
i love you.
come here, gorgeous. the sun is the color of our wedding palette. our magic hour is near.
posted by lei at 8:23 AM
love...
i love the feeling of after a fight. it's a dive to "yes it's over and i love her very much".
as i've said pretty, see the good out of the bad. see yourself as a victor and not the victim.
thanks for moving on with me. thanks for wanting to walk towards me with a gown. thanks for loving like 1Corinthians 13.
let the sunshine in. dali d b dali d...