today i am missing you terribly. like i've never missed you before. i want to pull the heavens so that the place where i stand will move next to you. i just miss being beside you. just to see you. even for a second. then i can let go of the sky from my hands and be pulled back to where i am. just a second will fix me. it's not the short phone conversations. it's not the limited exchange of messages. it's me needing to be beside you. i fell like a crumpled plastic wanting to go back to what i used to be. i don't even know what to write.

today are the moments in this test that my paper is blank. when all i want is to get through this. but i can't just leave the items wrongly filled up or stand and walk away without answers. God this is difficult.

today, i am sorry love, i forgot being hopeful. today i forgot God. when i shouldn't...specially today. more so tomorrow and the remaining days of putting the pieces together.

today and tomorrows, the bricks should not fall down but laid on top of the other.

today i disagreed with something that was right all along.

today i have learned the lesson that gives hints to the remaining items of this test.

have i answered today correctly?